From Shame to STRONG and Confident..

 Who has triggered you in this domain to feel angry?

Myself

What is the story you're telling yourself right now about what happened?

I allowed his feelings and beliefs about his own shame to take control of certain actions of his life. This caused a lot of damage to his life. And to those who are close to him. He lost a lot of trust that he had. He set a very bad example to his kids. The price of this is almost impossible to calculate. The fact that he allowed this to happen and to discover this at age 52 is very bad. I lost a lot and paid a very high price for allowing this to happen. I am frustrated as fuck and very angry that he allowed this to happen. I knew it was wrong. I knew my actions are causing a lot of damage. He knew he is losing trust from his family and trust in himself. Fuck. How is it possible that he could have been so blind?

What are the negative feelings that you're experiencing because of this story?

Angry. Furious. Bitter. Frustrated as fuck. Critical. Resentful. Cross. Upset. Overbearing. In hell. Miserable. Unforgiving. Blocked. Disappointed. Disrespectful towards myself. reprimanding. Uneasy. Alone. Fatigued. Hesitant. Moody. Self-critical. Tense. Useless. Inferior. Un-worthy. Fragile. Self-hating. Self-deprecating. These feelings are so intense at this moment I can type. I am trembling all over. But I just allow these feelings to flow. Fuck this is real.

What initial desires or actions do you notice rise for you with these feelings?

To fucking pack my bags and start a completely new life somewhere else. Somewhere where nobody knows me or my past.

What are the FACTS (without FEELINGS) about the situation that you've chosen to stack?

I've lost my temper and shouted and screamed at my wife and kids so many times in my life. I also shouted and screamed a lot of bad shit at myself. I called myself the most terrible names I could not believe that I was saying things like this Let alone to myself.

Beyond the trigger of this situation, what do you truly want for YOU?

I want to love and accept myself and see myself as a worthy human being. I want to act and grow from within my powerful frame across all 4 areas of my life.

What is a more strategic story that you could create to assure you get what you truly want?

I am here for a purpose. I forgave myself. I asked God for forgiveness. God forgave me. I say thank you to God for who and what I am. I am worthy. I believe in myself. I know myself. I am here to lead. I am here to guide others by who and what I am. O honor God for my light and my life. I appreciate God for my Body and the Game.

How does this new strategic story make you feel?

ON top of the world. Connected. Grounded. Strong. in Control. Loving. Devoted. Committed. Accepting. Harmonious. Kind to myself and others. Embracing. Energetic. Alive. Great. Giving. Calm. Content. Peaceful. Courageous.

What evidence do you have that proves this alternate story is true?

I went into one of my deepest pits with this angry stack and the Mega stack I did right before this one. I've LET GO of these feelings and beliefs of shame. I am in control I live a life by design. I am teaching others already from my experiences.

Will this new story give you what you want?

YES

Armed with what you want and the new story to get there, what INSIGHT or REVELATION are you leaving this stack with?

To be 100% awake and aware of my targets. To see how my actions will take me closer to them or further away from them. Me giving control away to these emotions and beliefs caused a lot of damage. I am now in a position to take full control of the direction of my life.

As you sit back and survey the revelations and insights from this stack what is the singular, simple lesson on life you’re learning from this angry stack?

Never ever give control of your actions to an emotion.